I have been absent for almost a year, and I know I should constantly be writing, however either I was too busy, or I was too happy… or I was too busy being happy. However now I feel like I need to write about some things. Read More
6 months have passed since my How to be single post, and here we are… happy, excited, confused, but definitely not single.
Details: I just finished my exams (my last one was really great), and that meant that I officially got through the first three years of medical school. 3 more to go! After that, we got a little bit drunk and started talking about our feelings etc. One of my friends had problems about being lonely, she was crying, so I had to comfort her. I made such a good and honest speech about single life and why it’s great. I truly meant it. Read More
I feel like this is the time when everyone around me questions whether they are in the right place. I mostly mean my medical friends (including me), but others too. Our naive bubble kinda popped, and all we have now is… is it worth it? I’ve already written about the conditions, now we realised that… we have to work really hard. Residents have to work 12 hours every day (80+ hours/week, a normal job is 40 hours/week). Read More
When I write about this, it’s because loneliness hits me… but mostly I’m totally fine with being single.
One of my very close friends broke up with her boyfriend several weeks ago. She’s 21 like me and since she was 14, she hasn’t been alone for a day! She is not able to be alone. Addicted to relationships. She’s clearly not over her previous boyfriend, but all she can think about is who is gonna be the next (the One). Read More
As a Hungarian medical student, I’m in a very difficult situation. This topic is always alive and although I’m still so far from actually making this decision, I feel like I need to talk about it. Staying or leaving? I WOULD stay, I really would, if the system let me. I can only see the current situation and I don’t wanna be pessimistic but I just don’t see anything changing for the better in 3-4 years. Obviously, the main problem is that there is not enough money to keep hospitals going (renovations are needed EVERYWHERE, new equipment, medicine etc), hire enough staff (therefore not just the doctors, but the nurses are really overloaded – 1 nurse for 40 unaware patients is absolutely ridiculous). They work 12-14 unbelievably exhausting hours, they get upset and sometimes rude, they burn out and they don’t even get the money they deserve. Read More
I successfully passed all my exams (pathology, pathophysiology, microbiology, immunology, surgical studies, internal medical propadeutics, medical psychology&communication), I finished them on January 15th – this really is a big deal! Honestly, I concentrated more on passing than studying every single thing, I felt bad about this but my average is still “good” (4.0). Again – I made a promise to myself – I’m gonna study harder this semester. Read More
I was walking my dog today in the fresh snow, and I remembered something. Back in 2012, I went to a chemistry camp (yeah, imagine 9 hours of chemistry every day, and 4*1,5 km walk to the place where you get food.). It was wintertime with a lot of snow. 30-40 cm snow in Hungary is rare. Next to the sideways, the snow was piled up in big and nice piles. Read More
I just realised that this title might sound depressed, but HELL NO. Listen to this, while reading.
Travelling. It’s something I haven’t done much but I definitely want to do it more. I’m a student, I don’t gain much money but from this moment, I will try to save up for something. Where? I don’t exactly know. My current dream is to travel around Iceland, and spend days skiing. Last year, when we were in Nice (French Riviera, no big deal), we were talking about how breathtakingly amazing it would be a ski slope down to the sea. And you know what’s in Iceland? Ski resorts by the sea. Read More
Memento mori. “Remember that you will die.” Admittedly, this isn’t the most pleasant topic. There is, however, great benefit in meditating on the reality that at some point, you will in fact die. It motivates you to live the life right now that you want to be living. Meditate on this, and write out your thoughts. Does death scare you? Does it motivate you? It’s okay to be honest. Read More
I suppose everyone knows what happened in Paris last night. It’s extremely sad – of course, but posting a picture about you smiling in front of the Eiffel tower, captioning #prayforparis will do no help. Changing your profile picture to the colors of France will do no help. I can’t help but feel hypocrisy all around me everytime something bad happens and social media becomes this large overwhelming bubble of empathy and condolence.
I even feel hypocritical writing this.
Because nothing I can do will do any help. What’s more, nothing governments can do will do any help. Yes, they are expressing their symphathy, condemning terrorism, strengthening security, but I’m totally sure that this is not enough. Terrorists are and will always be ahead of us no matter what. Attacks will happen. And what will be the response eventually? Starting a war, I guess. Possibly World War III. And it will be worse than any other because those weapons nowadays can kill more people than ever. Whole towns can be exterminated in one moment. In the past, battles were between soldiers. Now? You drop a nuclear bomb on my capital city, killing countless innocent people, so I will drop a nuclear bomb on your city to do the SAME? That’s pointless and so not fair. That’s not war.
My father told me after 9/11 that we will see WWIII happening in our lives. Then, this idea seemed terrifying but unimagineable. But now… it doesn’t seem so far.
There’s also no point in hating refugees. Yes, it IS possible that we let these terrorists into Europe, but it is certain that if we wouldn’t have done it, they would have found another way in. There were, are and will be evil people who – no matter what the reason is – will hurt others. It’s awful and we CANNOT do anything about it. This fact upsets me the most.
I will not tell anyone what to do, what to think. I personally won’t pretend I understand every aspect of this current foreign political situation, and I won’t hate on anyone. There’s nothing more I can do.